Nothing To Nobody

Have you ever wondered
What it feels to be loved
Then treated like you're nothing
When your love wasn't enough
And do everything you can
To get yourself away
Because you want to live
And have your own say

Have you not ever thought
That in order to move on
You need to have a break
From being with that one
The one who called you selfish
For trying to be happy
The one who still demotes me
Did you really never see?

I thought you were a friend
I thought that you were smart
Yet MY loyalties were questioned
When I did not play the part
Maybe I didn't like
That you were closer to my ex
Was it not clear enough
All he wanted was my sex

You've told me that you know
What it feels to be broken
And I never doubted that
But by the way you've spoken
I'm starting to wonder
What you really think of me
Am I in the wrong
Did you really think he loved me

I wondered what you thought
To, instead of me, pick him
And always be so friendly
When to me he was so grim
But now I think I know
And that's what makes me sad
To people like himself
He never was so bad

You were once a great friend
But now I can't come back
I just hope you understand
Your 'friendly fire' was already black
Never say it's all my fault
Lots of people are to blame
I don't care how bitterly
You choose to say my name

I'm loyal to my friends
As much as I can be
And I do make my mistakes
But this wasn't just me
Show me anger if you want
Shove my poetry in my face
But remember I'm still human
With that, I close my case.